I am a control freak.
I need all the answers and I need them now.
So when things happen to me that are beyond my control, when I’m faced with questions that I don’t know the answers to, you can imagine my sheer fury. And boy, I sure do mean fury.
As this year, as well as my senior year of high school, slowly comes to an end, there are lots of decisions to be made. Lots of questions that need answers. Big questions like what I want to do with my life or where I want to spend the next four years living—these are just the tip of the iceberg questions. And when it seems like everyone else around you has everything figured out, it sure can feel hecka overwhelming.
But then the other day, it hit me. Why am I so worried? What am I so afraid of?
What happened to my faith?
There’s a wonderful Bible passage that I’ve grown up hearing. Matthew 6:26-34 talks about how the birds of the air and the flowers of the field never worry or stress and yet God never fails them. The passage then goes on to ask “Oh you of little faith, are you not of more value than they?”
After remembering this passage, it all became clear to me. Do not dig up in doubt, what you have planted in faith. Just believe and everything will be okay.
I like to think that at the end of the day, that’s what God’s main call to us is. To believe. Blindly. Fully. Completely. We are smart, but we don’t know all the answers ourselves. When the road in front of us is weary and seemingly insurmountable, we have to believe that somewhere along the path the dots will connect, that we will reach our destination in one piece.
We all face things in life that are scary, things that are so far beyond our control. And in these moments, when we face these crossroads or these high mountains we have to close our eyes, take a little leap of faith, stop worrying and just believe that things will work out.
Let go a little, listen to your heart, and just let life happen.
I don’t know all the answers. I don’t know what the future holds. And that’s okay. But what I do know is that we have to believe that in the end, everything will be the way it was always supposed to be.
to the sun and back,